So I start school in 6 days. Im super nervous and kind of scared. Im sure I'll be fine but I think its just first day of school jitters. So today my stupid shoulder has been killing me. Im hoping its not going to be an issue once I start school. I finally started on the attack of dealing with the bedroom and the mass amount of boxes of clothes. I HAVE TO MANY!!!! I think Im a bit of a pack rat. I have like 6 boxes of clothes and maybe 2 boxes worth of what I wear. Why am I keeping all that other stuff. Heres some of my excuses."I'll fit in it again" "I dont get to wear it that many times" " It WAS cute" "I might need it" seriously I know there are lame. So I think some one should sign me up for that what not to wear show. lol. But Im going to finish unpacking everything and then do a huge purge. Maybe it will be healthly. But I'll tell you this, next move I am not bringing all of that crap with me again.

Life update

So Im in Vancouver finally with my love. Things have been crazy but are finally starting to come together. Im kind of missing Calgary, but overall its good I got the fuck out of there. So as I stated in my last post about my ex best friend. Some people are fake and like to waste my time. I dont have time for that in my life anymore. Garbage. Anyways, Vancouver is kindof lonely right now. I dont know many people here except Stacey, maybe once I start school I'll meet some cool people. But I really dont have any desire to make new friends, due to the fact I have had my back stabbed to many times in the last year. Id rather not deal with that shit again.
Anyways talk to you soon

Im waiting for my damn IPOD to charge so I can go to a barbq. HURRY UP!!!! lol. So the other day the strangest thing happened! My ex best friend who has avoided me and not spoken a word to me in almost a year, talked to me. We are meeting tomorrow suppossedly to talk. I have serious mixed emotions about this for sure. I really dont know what to think. I'll keep you updated.

I LOVE PERFUME!!!! It's almost an issue now. I love it so much!!! My poor medicine cabinet is bursting at the seams. I'm getting all excited about the Gwen Stefani Harajuku lovers collections that is coming out in September. I already have the L fragrence, Stacey got it for me for this last Christmas, I love it a lot. But I really want to get the new Escada moon sparkle too. Damn trying to save money for school. lol. Ahh well once Im done school and making big money Im getting a HUGE medicine cabinet hahaha!!! So Im going to be a dork and tell you what I have as of right now

Escada Pacific Paradise
Escada Sunset Heat
RL Ralph
RL Ralph Rocks
CK Euphoria
CK Euphoria soild perfume
Gucci Rush
Gwen Stefani L

Of cousre this doesnt included all the body lotions and bathgels from these scents. Geez I have a problem. lol

teachings from that book I was talking about

"All is well. You did not come here to fix a broken world. The world is not broken. You came here to live a wonderful life. And if you can learn to relax a little and let it all in, you will begin to see the universe present you with all that you have asked for."

OK so Im going to get a little weird on you all for a minute. So last summer I was told by a physic to read this book. (I know , I know. But I had seen this lady before and she hit the nail on the nose.) It was called Ask and it is Given. This book was all about manifesting your desires. Now when I first starting reading this book I was like, what the hell is this hippy dippy crap. But as I kept reading the book it started to all make sense. Now I still think the beginning was weird but the teachings in this book can and will work for anyone. They worked for me. But over the last while with things being so crazy I forgot all that this book had taught me. Basically this book teaches you that for everything in our lives we attract. And the more positive energy we put out the more we get back. I know it seems like such common sense. But it of course go much deeper then that. but all and all it kindof runs down to that if you want something thats good for you. You have to be positive and ask and the world will provide it to you.

Now after I read this book I but alot of these practices to play. One of the excerises they had was to place pictures or words into a box of all the things you want. Like if you want a new car. But a picture of a new car. But remember that you have to be positive. If you put a picture of a new car and then say you want it cause your other car is garbabge and that it doesnt work etc etc. That is a negitive feeling you are putting with that request. It can be hard to do this at first but once you do it, its easy to put it towards anything in your life. So anyways, I put all the pictures of things I wanted into a file on my computer. (it was my 21st Century way of doing it) I put pictures of Vancouver, the school I wanted to go to and pictures of happy couples etc. Well I'll tell you it worked. Not soon after I put this together and kept my positive thoughts going things started to fall into place. I found my long lost love Stacey, and we got engaged. I got into school in Vancouver and will be moving in less then 2 months.

But like I said, during the last bit I have forgotten to do these positive thinkings. I have been so busy in my own head worring about things that I forgot to just ask and put out positive thoughts and that if I was to do that things will be fine. So from today on Im going to remember to remember the teachings of this book and keep on with them.

This isnt a religious rant. This is a process that makes sense and also makes you feel amazing. Im not an overly religious person, but to think positive and give yourself up to the world and the powers that be, is something everyone can do no matter what your religiois stand point is.

So I of course recommed this book to everyone. But if not just remember to think positive thoughts about everything.

Never ever aftermath

I was born in the year of the Bulls-EyeAnd unless the headlines lie, then they prophesiedThat this age was the one to detonateSo let's goNo moreI can't take another false alarmSo if the fuses have been lit, let's get this over withI can't take another false alarmAnd I don't want to wait another day for the countdownBecause I fell in love with my visions of the mushroom cloudI was born and bred to bear witnessTo a long awaited glimpse of the burdened titan's blissAs he sheds the weight that was his sufferingUntil nowNo moreI can't take another false alarmSo if the fuses have been lit, let's get this over withI can't take another false alarmAnd I don't want to wait another day for the countdownBecause I fell in love with my visions of the mushroom cloudWith open armsStanding on a targetI thought that i could catch itI'll be the lucky oneI won't close my eyesAs I'm overloadedBy all the explosionsA spectacle of falling shellsSo now it's bombs awayThe blasting capsWill all laugh lastWith our collapseThe never ever aftermathNo moreI can't take another false alarmSo if the fuses have been lit, let's get this over withI can't take another false alarmAnd I don't want to wait another day for the countdownBecause I fell in love with my visions of the mushroom cloud